Thursday, July 27, 2006

man, this is super FREAKY. on friendster, people from philippines and indonesia have been adding me lah! and i don't even noe them, obviously. really freaky man.

Shan Ying and i just played Dead Man's Chest on MSN! SUPER FUN MAN! oh my gosh. So cool okay. if u wanna play, add billybones@deadmanstale.com in your msn contact list thingy. REAL FUN! haha especially the partnered one. WHOO we went to watch the movie together with cassandra. JOHNNY DEPP IS SO CUTE! haha and super funny and charming etc..

Yay! my bdae's coming soon, SO if you're thinking of getting ME something, here's some stuff u can consider *hint*: Jolin Tsai's latest CD dancing diva or something, a black notebook, one like cassandra's, a digital camera, Green Forest My Home OST, a skiing trip, JELLY HEARTS! <3, flowers like eustomas, lilies etc., size 6 cute shoes!, a maths/science tuition teacher.. and more stuff that i will add when i think of them.

p.s compared to the previous posts, this one's Super short!

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Friday, July 14, 2006

oh my gosh. i SO hate rythmic gym competitions. we didn't win any prize at all! after practising for abt 7 months, and all the staying back until 7-8pm the past few weeks, we couldnt have beaten any of the other gym 5 rope groups. like, DUH! my hopes were up sooo high, and then when i heard that we got last place, it all just came crashing down.

after all the hard work and effort i put into perfecting my steps and practising, practising, practising, putting up with all the other group members who sometimes, well, most of the times, gets on my nerves, THEY CAN'T EVEN GET THEIR STEPS RIGHT. i mean, im not totally angry with them, but it's TRUE. even my mum says so. that me and claudia did the routine the best. i know im being evil typing this all and it may seem that im just being selfish that i put all the blame on them, but i REALLY can't stand it! Do you know how much time i've put into this competition?? Do you know how much effort i put in?? And how many times i felt like crying but i wouldn't cuz if not i'll just be exactly like my other team members? Do you know how high my hopes were for our team??? But it was all just an illusion. I mean, i did my best and that's probably what matters the most. But i really can't stand it that if I can put in that much effort, why couldn't the other team members??

but if my team members get angry reading about this, i'm really not angry at you guys. im just venting my frustrations okay, im honestly not angry at you guys.

okay that sounds super hypocritical but it's true. im REALLY not angry at you guys, AT ALL. cause we're supposed to be a team anyway.

and you know what? what made our losing WORST is that those sec 1 and sec 2 optionals who were chosen abt 3 WEEKS before the competition actually went home with some prizes!!! well, not literally went home with them for some winners, but you know how long we practised?? FROM DECEMBER LAST YEAR. can i just kill myself now?!

the only good thing about the much effort and hard work i've put in is that I LOST WEIGHT! YAYY! well, i hope. Claudia lost quite a lot i think, but she did it on purpose. not eating dinner and stuff like that. Like 4kg. But im still super disappointed. If you were in my shoes, you would be too. I mean, I REALLY PUT IN LOADS OF EFFORT BUT HOW COME MY GROUP MEMBERS COULDN'T REMEMBER TO LI AND PENG THEIR JIAO?!?!?!?!? GAHH!

so anyway, i just came back from dinner with claudia and her family, (i never realise her family was so small compared to mine! XP) at singapore poly that food haven resturant. and then we went in our gym costume and make up and everything. then there were these poly students sitting on the other side of the room. and when claudia and me went looking for the restroom, this guy suddenly shouted:" My friend think you very cute leh!" But then I sorta ignored him cuz haha i dunno lah, it just happened. And anyway what could I have done. But then after we came back from the creepy toilet, I felt so bad lah! i mean, i SHOULD have done something, like STARE at him or something right? RIGHT??? hahaha, then i didn't feel so sad and disappointed anymore. THEN when i came home my mum was talking abt the gym competition AGAIN and then i got disappointed ALL OVER AGAIN. like when she came here and talked to me abt it again while i was typing out this post. i mean, I PUT IN SO MUCH EFFORT LOR!! i think you guys get my point.

so anyway. i was thinking about that quote cute unquote comment for the rest of the dinner. Was i cute because of my cute make-up that Rini's mother did? And u noe what she did when she put the foundation?? OH MY GOODNESS, i was so UGHed by that. She go PUSH the foundation on and STRETCHED my left facial cheek muscles! oh my gosh. i was SUPER freaked out that it was gonna sag. and still am. then even after she put the eye shadow and everything finished, i still could feel my facial muscles were kidna stretched. i was SOO SAD LAH. good thing my eyes didn't get wrinkly from all the pulling. PHEW. but i think it will soon. MUST put cucumber on eyes tonight.

haha so, so sad lor. I should've stared at him or something. Then it was like im so rude, just ignored him. Like that time Rachel's mum sent us to the bus stop after gym practise, and i dunno whether her mum heard me say thank you before jumping out of the car to get onto the 154 bus that comes only every half an hour. Then when i got onto the bus i felt SUPER bad that i didn't really say thank you properly. I hope she heard it. You can ask claudia, i was felt super bad about not saying a proper thank you or watever its called.

so now im back home and my parents are SUPER irritating lor. just because im sitting at the com typing out this blog post so that my friends can know what's going on in my life wearing my gym costume with make up still on my face and rashes appearing due to my unclean hands, do they HAVE to keep asking me to bathe?!?! if i want to get rashes its my problem then. and now im super scared of my contacts. i MUST take it out befoe i bathe. MUST.

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